Actually my muscles are sore around my tibia and fibula trudging up and down Asia Pacific International University (APIU) campus. I think I miss Krungthep.

Last night I ate too much and couldn't sleep right away. Thought it would be very noiseless in here because I'm far from the city but I was wrong. the campus is near the railway and every couple hours I hear the locomotive pass by and because it's a long queue of trucks its noise is as long as its size! Oh my word, I could almost count the number of wheels as they clang with the iron railway. I have already counted 4 so far and was waiting for the fifth when I finally dozed off.

It was a long night. Early the next day before the dawn breaks I heard the cooing of the birds and the chirping of some insects from the nearby trees. This is such a farm life that I have to get used to.

Oh by the way, I'm not yet sleeping in the dorm. I stayed in a house near the backyard that's why I hear all those noises.

I had a rather unhappy ending for year 2006--at least that's what I thought. But when I look at a different angle it seemed everything was going right. It's just that I stared too long at the closed door I didn't realize that the window behind me was offering a way out. Sometimes we have to make mistakes before we learn. Is there a short cut to all the knowledge we need? I guess no.

The dorm room is rather smaller than I thought. I have left Bangkok. Stay at Mission College. Have access to the library and free internet. Live simply. Just bring my books and clothes basically. Everything else I had I got rid of them.

I was introduced to my new roomy and she ushered me to our room. At the first sight of it I wanted to turn my back and go back to Bangkok. The desks assigned to me were dusty. Underneath was some dirt. The window screen didn't look clear. Looks like nobody has stayed there for a year. I didn't sleep on my bed. I went to an acquaintance's house and stayed there overnight.

The music from my roomy's computer was playing loudly--certainly not the type I wanted to listen to when I'm studying. But it seemed okay. The door to the washroom was open and I could hear another music from the next room. But still I was reading my book. If I was in the same situation in Bangkok I would have closed my book and probably cleaned the apartment. But here it seemed okay. I'm in the mood to study no matter what noise I hear. I have so much to do and didn't know where to start. Then I realized I had to free myself first from all these anxieties that beset me. I cannot contain them all in my brain. So here I am slowly unloading my mind and put them all here.

The weather is nice. Though it's still not as pleasant as I wish but I'm starting to like it here.

Life is getting tougher and tougher. I don't have a job right now and I'm studying. I'm studying because I don't have a job. How am I suppose to survive? But God is always on time. He knows I would be in this situation even before our human mind could possibly perceive about it. So what did God do? He sent me friends who would be there when I need them. Does God really determine our future? He knows our future but we are not to be robots. We are totally resposible of whatever we do with our life. We are hopeless--helpless without God. Since He knows the future and He can change our ashes into beauty the best thing to do is to always ask His divine guidance. He plans to give a future full of hope and He will take me there.