Last night was my first time to sleep in the dorm. But first I had to clean up the screens and all conrners of the windows coz I don't want to see those dusts greeting me first thing when I wake up in the morning. I heard the bell 3 times and I remember what Doca, my roomy told me--If you hear three short rings it means there's a male coming so we should not dress like this (you know what I mean ladies). When we finally retired on our beds my roomy said "it's kinda strange to see you in tonight." She let me use her pillow. The weather was not cosy. If I use the blanket it's too hot. If I turn on the ceiling fan it gets too cold. I hate this feeling. Finally, I had to open the door to let the fresh air ventilate the room but the light emanating from the lamp-post in front of my room was distracting me. I can't sleep well with the lights on. I tried to be comfortable but my eyes didn't wanna go to dreamland. I twisted and turned and the bed was creeking at everytime I move. I could hear almost all sounds from within a hundred feet. The cars from the highway, the shells that are blown by the wind, the exhaust fan from the toilet everytime someone uses it, the myriad of birds who seemed to be singing in chorus with an orchestra of insects. It was past midnight when I finally dozed off but only to be awaken very early the next day by the sound of the bell and water coming out from the washroom. Time for breakfast. I better flex those biceps and other muscles. Another day has begun.

Actually my muscles are sore around my tibia and fibula trudging up and down Asia Pacific International University (APIU) campus. I think I miss Krungthep.

Last night I ate too much and couldn't sleep right away. Thought it would be very noiseless in here because I'm far from the city but I was wrong. the campus is near the railway and every couple hours I hear the locomotive pass by and because it's a long queue of trucks its noise is as long as its size! Oh my word, I could almost count the number of wheels as they clang with the iron railway. I have already counted 4 so far and was waiting for the fifth when I finally dozed off.

It was a long night. Early the next day before the dawn breaks I heard the cooing of the birds and the chirping of some insects from the nearby trees. This is such a farm life that I have to get used to.

Oh by the way, I'm not yet sleeping in the dorm. I stayed in a house near the backyard that's why I hear all those noises.

I had a rather unhappy ending for year 2006--at least that's what I thought. But when I look at a different angle it seemed everything was going right. It's just that I stared too long at the closed door I didn't realize that the window behind me was offering a way out. Sometimes we have to make mistakes before we learn. Is there a short cut to all the knowledge we need? I guess no.

The dorm room is rather smaller than I thought. I have left Bangkok. Stay at Mission College. Have access to the library and free internet. Live simply. Just bring my books and clothes basically. Everything else I had I got rid of them.

I was introduced to my new roomy and she ushered me to our room. At the first sight of it I wanted to turn my back and go back to Bangkok. The desks assigned to me were dusty. Underneath was some dirt. The window screen didn't look clear. Looks like nobody has stayed there for a year. I didn't sleep on my bed. I went to an acquaintance's house and stayed there overnight.

The music from my roomy's computer was playing loudly--certainly not the type I wanted to listen to when I'm studying. But it seemed okay. The door to the washroom was open and I could hear another music from the next room. But still I was reading my book. If I was in the same situation in Bangkok I would have closed my book and probably cleaned the apartment. But here it seemed okay. I'm in the mood to study no matter what noise I hear. I have so much to do and didn't know where to start. Then I realized I had to free myself first from all these anxieties that beset me. I cannot contain them all in my brain. So here I am slowly unloading my mind and put them all here.

The weather is nice. Though it's still not as pleasant as I wish but I'm starting to like it here.